selfishness = stupidity

I am tired of being unperceivable in my relationships, yet having to navigate the endless projections of others concerning who I may be. I am tired of being interpreted through my performance of self, rather than being judged by my potential to be responsive to everything that effects me. Most of all, I am tired of being used and worn down by obligations to the people I love. I am angry that I must constantly toil without peace, while surrounded by overwhelming social stupidity and protectionism.

LOVE in me is....

Love is, in my opinion, what life is about. When i love, i m expressing my deepest, most authentic aspect of self. Love sparks creation -look at the poetry, music, and art that has been driven by love. And the beauty is, we possess Love at every moment. Love is within us. We often mistakenly misidentify Love by confusing it with the object of our Love and affection. However, Love itself begins within us. The reason love feels so good is that we are actually expressing our Selves in one of the purest ways possible. The person I am loving is merely the recipient of the best of my self that I have to give.

Sometimes we get angry at what we perceive as 'lost love' or by 'being betrayed by love.' However, once you begin to understand that Love is within you at all times, you begin to comprehend that all that has been lost is the object you are loving - you didn't lose the Love - that is still inside you at every moment. Nor were you truly disappointed by love - your love, your most beautiful expression of Self, is still there within you, and CANNOT disappoint. Another person's behavior (that of the object of your love) can be disappointing, but Love itself cannot. Love is always beautiful, and you can learn to harness that feeling and use and express it every day of your life, in many different ways in the world. There are those who could be angry and say that love has betrayed them, but instead they turn inward to the Love they know they possess and decide that instead of being bitter over the actions of another, they want to reside in a world where they are ever surrounded by Love, and therefore they express it regularly, through their interactions with all around them, and channel it into work, art, Life. Love is what you have to give, and there are endless ways to give it. Give Love to the world, and give it every day, and you will live a life that is a work of art.

You and I

A moment of happiness,
you and I sitting on the door,
apparently two, but one in soul, you and I.
We feel the flowing water of life here,
you and I, with the garden's beauty
and the birds singing.
The stars will be watching us,
and we will show them
what it is to be a thin crescent moon.
You and I unselfed, will be together,
indifferent to idle speculation, you and I.
The parrots of heaven will be cracking sugar
as we laugh together, you and I.
In one form upon this earth,
and in another form in a timeless sweet land.

MOST MEMORABLE BIRTHDAY EVER

"Throughout life I have had many memorable events. The
memorable times in my life vary from being the worst times
in my life and some being the best, either way they have

become milestones that will be remembered forever."

MEMORABLE DAY IS DAY ON WHICH SOMETHING UNEXPECTED THINGS 
HAPPENS. SAME IS CASE HAPPENED WITH ME WHEN my sweetheart
made dis day very special for me.Only my mom made feel special as he does,,
though some how dis was very terrible coz i was missing her like anything
though I know she is always with me.First the day started with so many wishes
 by my loved one.Abhi wishes me with a very sweet message,,and a promise to 
be with me always ;)) and the second best wish was that of my bro,,he bought 
chocolates,and a huge hug ;).The first half of the day was pretty interesting for me,,
so many special gestures made by Abhi made me feel on the top of this world..
And I couldnt even realise when that beautiful evening appeared.He made me go 20 yrs 
back,,hahahahaha bought me crown,,cake,,,decorated my room,,treated me like a princess,
,,and than came my friends to make this day more special to me.We had so much fun,,,
clicking pix(my fav part,,m such a photoholic),,dancing,,chirping,,teasing,,Ohh it was all so 
much fun,,,,and my Birthday cake though i could not eat much,,was mouth watering,,
dark choco truffle cake,,yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
It was so special,,,and everything done by Abhi only,,,amazing amazing Birthday  ;))
I wish that day would have never ended..but left me my most special memories.

Valentine's Day

For me every day is a Valentine's day though dis tym,,it really bought me some special memories.

My V'Day started at mid night with a sweet gesture that my love made for me n his words made me cry out of hapiness.i just cnt pen down my feelings,,,its was indeed very very special for me...

You live within me, yet I am ......without you all alone.
With you I am full of light; without you I am stone.

This day of love come love with me,
Come sing with me my song.
Come be my Valentine, and I
Will love you my life long, my love,
Will love you my life long.

the day bought even better memories,,,i was never so expressive,,,,that i became,,,long drine for almost three hours,in the middle of the whole world,,,yet with no around, ,, the middle of the traffic,,,,,,yet very peaceful................never thought it be so special ..... n from now i can alwaz relate myself with dis special day......

After so many days thinking about to strt bloging,,,,m finally here !!!!!!

Hope to keep it going,,,though i have problem as i m nt able to pen down my feelings but lets give it a try ;)

I am sick and tired of people who have so much sorrow for their own struggles and a total lack of empathy for other peoples struggles. I am tired of attempting to be there for other people, only to discover over and over again, that the carelessness of mind that led to their problems will affect me in the end as they exercise their carelessness with me